It’s been quite a long time since I’ve been able to enjoy the me that I used to be. The days of Digg, Reddit, Ars Technica, Brudirect RSS reading have been something I’ve shelved for the past few months. That and geeking out: playing around with J2ME / PHP / Linux. I’ve been trying to get back in the groove of what I used to do and at relish the experience but alas the things I throw at the wall don’t seem to stick. I guess in the busyness / constancy / way that life has been for the past few months I’ve lost a part of who I was.
The past few weeks have been filled with changes: I’m an uncle now and the challenges of last and this week have been a great learning experience. I know there always comes a time when we lose ourselves and in order to get back to our ‘old selves’ we try to do things way we used to in hopes to achieve the same past experiences. I’ve done a bit of that recently and I haven’t been getting anywhere. So I have 2 options as I see it: 1) try some more or 2) see what this new phase of life has to offer me, and I’m seemingly tired of trying. The last few days God has revealed things to me and I just pray that He continue to reveal what this new phase in life is for. So I wait for an answer to this journey’s life question.
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Sometimes the next step in evolution is just giving in. Change can be good, even if it’s scary. Just make sure that change is on your terms and not imposed on you by others.